Oh the north and the South

Well, having moved from one side of this line to another, I have come to a sharp conclusion, the north is not as care free and liberal as I was told, in fact I feel like I have been lied to, and have moved from a mountain based conservative church going god fearing racist community to a corn based conservative church going god fearing racist community. And the worst part is that the mountain based version while vocal suffered from it in a less severe manner. And by that I mean for every nut job, there were a lot of folks who understood the importance of racial issues and knew not to tromp on them. That isn't to say the majority wasn't racist, they just tended to deal with the issue rather than to let it sit and brew.

But having heard stories from Ohio, Massachusetts, etc. all northern states, I have come to the conclusion that the new yorker map of America is probably right on



That being said, I think it important to note, that there is no north and south any more, rather there is "The East Coast Major Cities", The Center of America, and The West Coast. These are the 3 new areas of the United States, and we can really break it down further to "The Coast" and "The Center". The center is composed of highly retard based populations who often vote republican, share religious views, and feel the need to scream that they are patriotic so the rest of the world can hear. They also fear change and hate anything that they don't understand. Meanwhile the Coastal areas, having an ocean to escape on are often the actual targets of attacks against American soil, and feel alienated, highly liberal, and attempt to move away from standard religion (save perhaps Judaism) and the racism is directed at actual foreigners, rather than different races who have been in the United States since its foundation.

With all this in mind, I think the only choice location is clear... Europe, but the problem is that while the United States is working on eliminating freedom of thought, the EU is working on getting rid of freedom of action, with every corner infested with a camera in London, France and other European nations seeing the tension between Muslims and their own citizens building, and the Eastern section of Europe still being the path where everyone else goes through, creating the doormat effect.

Southeast Asia isn't a much better choice. While the economy may flourish, the price is often at the cost of human lives and the novel idea of a vacation, and while I'm all for working towards a greater humanity, I'm fine doing it at a pace that allows for the equal opportunity and human rights preservation. Leaving South America and Africa, which are sadly still shitholes

That is all.

Partison Fuckery

Well I thought I'd take a moment to step away from my bitching and complain about more global issues that are far more worthy of my hatred. You see I grew up in the south, and as such I am used to a pretty one sided perspective of politics. That being said I must admit that things are getting rather nasty this year, far nastier than they usually are. With McCain almost setup to loose (lets face the old fart never really stood a chance against a torrent of angry democrats who are tired of dieing because they didn't have enough money to pay the bills). So despite my usual approach of waiting until the last minute (for which I am so well known for in the past ) I am going to go ahead and say that if the democrats don't' win this election that they might as well just QQ re-roll another country.

That being said it would seem that their lackeys have gotten quite the rap for being racist and bigoted assholes, that is on both sides of the argument. While the McCain camp has gotten down to nothing short of calling Barak Obama a dirty terrorist who is hell bent on taking over the country and somehow making all white people slaves. Oh yes and Arabs are all horrible. Meanwhile the Obama campaign while not quite so much on the bigotry and the hatred, has certainly had non stop fun in picking apart those who don't happen to have all the time to listen to all points of view. By just degrading these people, I believe (personally) that these kind of things are uncalled for, there is no need to simply call these people stupid. The big problem is they honestly don't know the whole story.

Anyway it just shows how politics can never come in the form of something, We in America have this love of dirty politics, because we could care less for the truth. We would much rather just stick to mud slinging than actually listing to C-Span (I mean this is why C-Span still sucks in the ratings, but should you want the truth go no further, they actually just tape the senate for the shits and giggles (that poor cameraman)

Alarm Clocks

LF A better method of waking up. I have been trying for weeks to find a more stable way to wake up (as I'm not one of those people who can a.) set an alarm clock and wake up the first time or b.) wake up when I am supposed to via some natural timer). And the problem is that I am getting odd ours of sleep to begin with (2AM - 8AM and the likes) And it occurs to me that my oversleeping may catch me in a bad spot someday. Now so far I haven't missed anything critical (an early morning math class, a C&IT 176 class or two, but nothing critical) but what concerns me is that if this keeps up I may very well miss something critical. I can't remember how it is I managed to wake up pretty much on time every day for chat state, but I think it had to do with the distance of my alarm clock, in addition to that I seem to have "adapted" to the sound and now even in sleep can flat block it out.

I've been using my phone (as I can change the alarm on that) with some mild success, but I was wondering if anyone out there had any ideas on a sure fire method (short of rotating my sleep schedule as right now I can not do that) of waking up on time. It's be an annoyance to wake up and go "Shit, I can't go to class now, they're right in the middle of things" especially as final's and projects loom ever closer to getting started.

I have tried the phone option as I said above, I tried switching my alarm clock to radio so that random music would play, but none of these methods really work. So I am at a loss...

So for the next few days I'll just update you on what does work, and maybe I'll find a sure fire method of waking up to get something done.

Draconic Practices

For a long time I have been an advocate of technology in the classroom, and I have finally landed in a situation in which once again technology is seen as holding back and preventing students from learning rather than providing assistance. This instance of course has to do with Purude Universities policies regarding the use of calculators. You see in draconian wisdom they thought that it would be prudent to simply disallow the use the ever popular TI-83.

Now I would like to stress that I am well aware of the logic behind this decision, you see for all of us out there who simply can't stand the lack of full equation support on a one line calculator there is someone out there who will download a program to the calculator and use it to easy mode their way through courses. My problem with this is that college has never prevented stupid people from reaching the workplace before, and if you want proof of that all you need to do is look at a CS major, half of them don't know what a variable is, they just know who to talk to for homework and a good deal about copying.

Another perhaps more important section of this is that it is helping no one by forcing them to downgrade their mathematics skill, making us use a 1 line calculator won't help us to understand the concept any more than with a TI-83 or equivalent, all it serves to do is cause us to take our sweet time making sure we type in everything correctly the first time and praying that the massive equation we typed in wasn't wrong at some point. With a TI-83, we could look over said equation and simply place the cursor where need be to fix any problems. And if someone does program their calculator to do integration or the likes than all the more power to them, I would think that shows more skill and understanding of the math not less as math is the basic and fundamental point for all programming, so if they are programming the equations in they probably have the core theory down pat.

My point falls back to this draconian practice of eliminating technology for fear a student will not learn, and than forcing students to believe that by letting them suffer through intolerable basic math that they are keeping their wits sharp. All it does is serve to distract from any core curriculum that the class may have been trying to teach because while you are teaching the ideas of an infinite series your students are still trying to get the first 3 nonzero integers in that series to add together with the correct parentheses.

So there you have it, I haven't bitched in a month or two, but this has become an annoyance, and I just thought that I would bring it up

Man I hate doctors

Alright, so I have come down with my bi-annual sinus infection, the problem is that I am no where near home. So I thought to myself, it's a good time to stop by a doctors office so that I can get a prescription written for some antibiotics, take them for 3 weeks, and kindly be on my way. So I scheduled an appointment with the schools in house Doctor's Office (kindly referred to here as PUSH), for something around 10:30. Thanks to a combination of missing the bus and my alarm going off at the wrong time, I wound up waking up around 9:50, for those who don't know it's a 20 minute walk just to get down to the center of campus, plus or minus the time it took to take a quick shower and get changed. Long story short I ended up getting there at 10:35 ish, And thanks to standard doctor like love, my appointment had been scrubbed. So I asked what I could do in the mean time, and they told me that I could either pay to see the Emergency Care ward (way to go American health System), or I could reschedule for another day, due to complications tomorrow is out of the question.

So they set me up with this triage nurse in the meantime to help me make the reschedule, she didn't seem to understand that I really couldn't come in on Friday, and seemed even more frustrated that I was irritated by the manner I was being treated in this whole thing. She proceeded to list a string of medicines which she thought might be helpful (advil cold and sinus, afrin, etc.) for those of you who get these bi-annual sinus infections, you know that those medications will do all of nothing to stop the creature, and that until you start taking rounds of antibiotics, you're pretty much looking at the symptoms for a long time to come (Did I mention that even though I listed the symptoms, explained I am well acquainted with, and know damn well that it's a Sinus Infection, she proceeded to tell me I have a cold). Needless to say right now I'm a little upset, a little tired, a little hungry, and quite miserable from a combination of lonely depression, and a horrible Sinus Infection

Don't get me wrong, I understand that you are supposed to show up 15 minutes early not 4 minutes late, but it would seem to me that if you are that backed up with students, you wouldn't have told me Yesterday (at 4:50 after you had closed normal business) that you have openings from 8-noon. I don't know maybe a 1000 mystery patients called in the night, or maybe I just was so busy being miserable yesterday I misinterpreted the young lady. If you add to all of this the fact that "PUSH" isn't really covered by insurance, you get this lovely mess. Add to all this that all of the local doctors aren't anywhere close to the Bus Routes, (or at least the doctors my insurance covers) and I'm looking at a very long weekend.

You know, how fucking hard is it to go here take this antibiotics for a few weeks. It's not like I'm going to use them to make a meth bomb or sell them on the street, I feel like shit and I want to get better, and I know the quickest way to do that is to take some Antibiotics. And yes I know that doctors are supposed to give a diagnosis of the situation before they can proceed, but fuck, you know after 20 years of this living hell, I think I would pick up on when my sinuses are acting up. It's not a god damned mystery, and even if it was a cold the Antibiotics aren't going to help or hurt, its not like it will destroy my immune system.

People in the field of biology are so wrapped up in this fear of releasing the next super bug, that they often forget what the hell they became a doctor for. It's not to make a quick buck, it's not to shuffle as many human beings through a door at any given time, its to fucking help people. And if you can't be bothered to meet with someone whose fucking miserable and just a bit late, than what the hell can you be bothered with? I mean goddamnit people, I just want to see a doctor so that I can feel better, so I don't have to blow my nose ever 5 minutes.

Doctors within the US health system need to stop going out to play golf every god damn chance they get and try to remember why it is that they made the Hippocratic Oath

Phaser Really Begins to Rant

I ask all those out there to please take a moment and think if there are any charities worth to you.

Ask an Atheist

So I have decided to let people ask me questions about my lack of faith (I see a lot of misconceptions out there). So I put out this video, no script to go with it. But yeah check it out =D

New Vid

New video, just trying to keep the updates going and what not.

We're Back

Kinda,

http://phaser.mewvision.com/

Working on getting forum and fullphaser.com back, have more for you as it becomes available.

Fullphser.com coming back

That's right, fullphaser.com is coming back, I'll have more news for you as it unfolds, but I can tell you right now that if it comes out like I want, it will look very good.

catch you all later ;)

Collge Spirit

Alright, as some of you may or may not know, I recently went about attending a major university within the United States. This is after having come from a small community college that settled along the banks of the Tennessee river, so the change was somewhat dramatic in terms of exactly what it was that was going on. First off let me say that I am in know way attacking Purdue University, (har har, saving my own ass here) I am just commenting on the nature of school spirit when applied to large groups. I can easily say that much anything I am about to say can be applied to nearly any large University which features a sports team and has a committee to make the kids attending feel proud about the school.

But I have to admit, ever time I put my arm into the air, clap and say "Boiler Up" it feels just a bit like Hitler youth. Alright so maybe that is a very far off comparison, but the mob mentality, combined with the ideology that there is this much pride generated over a school or a sports team, enough to get 5000+ people to do it in Unison is admittedly creepy. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure there is a good reason for it in terms of the students mental health. For a lot of students they have left their homes for the next 4 years to live with people whom they have no clue about, so for them this something useful and fun to keep their minds off of their homesickness, in part to give them a new home to be proud of.

That doesn't not however change the fact that these chants and songs are just a bit fucking creepy for someone who has little experience in anything resembling school spirit. My High School was proud of itself, and it knew it was well off academically, but in terms of school spirit it was just kind of an inner pride that we all kept to ourselves, knowing damn well that we were the top preforming High School in the region, nearly hands down. So there was really no need, as this was a secret that everyone was in on, That and our sports teams were never in the American Football kind of thing, so we got stuck with those funny off sports.

And Community college was no different, no one was there because they were proud to be there, they were there because they had a goal to accomplish, and the community college was the means to that goal. I don't know maybe I feel the same way at Purdue, and that is why I am not quite as in the mood as others, I don't really feel proud to be up here, I had a feeling that I could easily get in with the right use of Charisma and applied intelligence, that I am using Purdue as a means to accomplish the goal of networking with major industries and large sections of the Government sector where I intend to eventually work,

But Yeah, just some thoughts, any of you out there find your school spirit to be just a bit creepy?

I'm Back!

Well, after sitting around for nearly 4 days, I have been without internet, and now I have it back, which is wonderful in oh so many ways, but I am also busy as hell, and really only have the time to sit here and tell you that I am in fact back and will be doing whatever the hell it is that I do online. But yeah... if you're curious where the hell I've been (and I know for a fact that you actually could care less), I have been away at Purdue University, spending money so that I could get a DSL connection (real progress forward here in this dormitory)

But yeah that is really all I have right now (I've got a lot more to say, but sadly no time to say it because my schedule is so insane right now I really don't have time to sit down and write all the things I want to say)

But you are probably going to get several post tomorrow, which is kind of like my off day. Yeah!

How to stay up

So, I have this new plan in order to reset my all to precious sleep schedule, I'm going to try and stay up for only 29 hours, which honestly isn't that hard. The problem is that I haven't done this in quite a while, and I'm not quite sure what is the best way to pull it off. So I'm starting with a Caffeine regiment along with a lot of tea. The problem is that Caffeine has a nasty habit of making you crash, and my current sleep cycle (the one in which I was only staying up 12-14 hours (out of a 24 hour day, that is too little time to be up) is way to far off, and its only 12 hours in and I am already beginning to feel the effects of sleep dep. This is way to early on in the field to play this game.

I'm going to stick to playing WoW, doing some activities outside, keeping up a physical regiment. I can't illustrate who desperate I am to put my sleep schedule back on track. The problem is I'm probably just going to fuck it up again on Friday. Ugggh... I have a lot to do this weekend

Anyway so yeah. I'm trying to stay up, feel free to post comments and suggestions on how you stabilize your sleep system.

Double Fuck

Well I'm sitting here, and I am actually starting to pick up some nice stories for Saturday, so this next video won't quite be as horrible as the last one. This one will in fact feature a script. So look forward to that, I do hope it brings you some kind of joy or something similar.

Also I should note that if you haven't seen Batman: The Dark Night, you totally should, its a very good film. On a funnier note, I thought I might talk about WoW, and now that I have gotten my flying mount, I thought I might actually make a useful class, so I rolled up a druid on Alteric Mountains (the server) named fullphaser, because I am horrible unoriginal + its a good way to get ones name out.

Also I am working slowly to get my forum up and running (the Phaser Labs Links). Also I am trying to get this post out before Midnight, because I don't want to break my habit of posting at least 1 think every day, that way I can come back and look at it later and vomit all over myself

But if you're on the server and you actually give 2 shits, feel free to shoot me a mail or something.

Lata, =D

On the Internet and God

So, One thing that I have come to see become popular on the internet is the ideology surrounding a god or gods. It's quite funny, simply because it seems to be the new arena in which those of the world begin to combat each others in their ideology. The Internet has opened this new realm in which the people of the world go about to tackling the major issues of the world, and with this new information highway, so to exist the tendency of those around us to begin to question their belief systems in favor of new information that without the internet would simply not be present.

But with the new age of information so to comes the massive waves of misinformation to persuade the public into something else. Which presents a whole new problem for society. A society in which mass media really doesn't even have to try anymore, rather a simple e-mail can convince a person of a series of the most blatant lies. A reality in which the core of said information (lets say Wikipedia in this case) is seen as the key area of disinformation and considered the most dis trustworthy source of information available.

So there we have a paradox, that all information must at first be treated as false in nature because before verification can occur, that information must be treated as simply popular rather than correct. Because the more popular the information and by this regard I mean the more people who believe, it becomes more credible simply because it has a force of will that stretches out and forces others intro this kind of cult belief system.

That being said, it would seem that I really need to come up with a script for the video tonight, so I will see you later

Regards,

Oh God I hate shopping

Alright, so I had to go out and start to round up some things, so that when I do go off to college, my first series of thoughts is not to run right back home to get something that I may or may not have left at home. So I am running through the wonderful little list that Purdue supplies, my own personal wants, and in addition to that some suggestions from my parents. Now I suppose the smart thing would be to contact my roommates in the near future to find out exactly what it is we would only need one of... but I have a nasty habit of not trusting people as far as they can be thrown. Why leave to others what you are just going to have to take care of yourself?

Point of the matter is that I decided to pick up some of the basics tonight (more clothes, shoes, school supplies). Thanks to some help from my grandmother I was able to get a hold of some bedsheets and towels. Its looking like the only thing that I need now are bathroom supplies, a bit of medication, a printer, and to start gathering boxes up. I'm planning on bringing up an Ionic Breeze, Air Conditioner (can never be to cold), A TV (27" Wide screen thank you Rave Motion Pictures) A computer, although judging from the size of the room I can't make any guesses where the hell I am going to put the computer.

It will be nice to have a dresser I suppose, I'm not sure if I'm going to see my PS2 / XBOX. I suppose the place could use some plants too.... never a bad time to add some green to the room. Anyway I wrote this so that I would have a chance to bitch about shopping, and my first complaint goes to you lawl-mart

You see Wal Mart has implemented this new system where they let the customer ring themselves up, the problem of course is that the system was not designed for any Wal Mart customers. You see it was designed for people who are not in a hurry (because that's not the reason I dropped by the thing to begin with). Add to this computer incompetence, and you have the perfect mix of a hold up not seen for ages.

Really its just faster to use the cashiers to begin with... So yeah anyway, moving on there is of course Sears, who seems to believe that their customers are either fat and short, or perfectly normal in size. So fuck you Sears, why don't you make some 44x32 pants? For that matter, why don't a lot of places make 44x32? This also applies to shirts, especially those of the 3x size...

And of course Target. Really just fuck you guys, your customer base is composed of all those people who think they are to good to be seen shopping at Wal-Mart. Look I'm a poor college student, who has come from a Lower Middle Class family, and is living off loans in order to operate, so fuck you Target, and your I'm better than you attitude that your customers have, its like a K-Mart that had more money.

All in all, I hate shopping, this is all... also I have to come up with some News stories for my Tuesday video, as nothing of intrest has caught my eye.

Hereos of Might and piss me off

So, I have had Heroes of Might and Magic 5 for quite a while now, so the game is nothing new to me. But after I reformatted my computer 6-9 months ago, I kind of forgot to reinstall it. So I figured I might as well, along with a couple of other decent games that are worth playing until 4 in the morning. But I quickly came to remember why it is I had given up on this game for a while there, and still to some degree sort of have

The Map editor for almost every Heroes game before was so much more intuitive, this poor thing is so choked up on its graphics, even a computer with my specs can't really take it. And so I am left with (until I can find a way to prune the memory leaks out of the map editor) with what is left online etc. Add to this that the company (Ubisoft) in an attempt to make more money, rather than release all the games content at once they decided that they were going to release it in expansions.

This is a dick move to your customers I'm convinced, especially if you intend to charge them for said expansion pack, it's just not right to do that to paying customers for your first game. I don't know perhaps it is just me, but I figure if you are going to release a product and you expect your customers to pay the first time, and it is not running a constant bill for servers, than release new content to them for free.

Anyway, the gaping memory hole that sits in the main game too is quite the annoyance, I have never been so upset that an up to date GPU hasn't been able to render a game. And I really don't think its the GPU's fault, I have seen it load much prettier games, but the fact of the matter is that in new game development, with so much focus on graphics, they forget that load times / memory leaks are far less liked than any tree or 3d rendered whatchmafuck.

So yeah... please fix the memory leaks

The Game

Well you all just lost the game, but that is besides the point, in honor of the August 8th opening to the Olympics loosethegame.com has opened up a contest to get people to come up with interesting way to promote the games. That way? find some interesting ways to get the largest number of people to loose the game.

So get out there and find some cool ways to get people to loose the game. I myself have done it a bit early, (but people probably won't start seeing it until the 8th anyway). And I have done a quick video said mention of the game.

But yeah, today's blog post is short, so just post some comments on your own plans to help people to loose the game

regards,

Youtube Script, 08/02/08

Youtube Script for August the 2nd 2008
Opening:
Hello, it’s August the 2nd 2008, and yes my nose is finally green

Opening Credits: Song - 09. BassHunter - Vi sitter i Ventrilo och spelar DOTA

So at the top of the news, a story about corruption within our government, not that you haven’t heard about something like this before. This story is coming from the MnDOT, and an employee of theirs who took a 2 week hiatus during one of the most critical emergencies the state ever faced. And what is even better, is that she is now working for the Homeland Security’s DOT, the world never ceases to amaze me.

Sonia Pitt was working for MnDOT when that huge bridge collapse a while ago occurred, and during the event she decided to take an unauthorized vacation to Washington using state funds. She was fired by MnDOT for this huge misappropriation of power. But it would seem only 6 months later she is now working for Homeland Security’s DOT.

http://www.startribune.com/local/26126214.html?location_refer=Local%20+%20Metro:highlightModules:7

In news no one cares about, because it’s about California, and only Californians seem to care about California.

An earthquake of 5.4 in magnitude stuck the Los Angeles area. It would seem however those years of developing structures to withstand earthquakes have done quite a deal of good, with reports that damage across the region was essentially minimal.

http://quake.usgs.gov/recenteqs/Maps/Los_Angeles.html

In an airport far far away, Virgin Galactic has unveiled its newest lineup in the commercial spaceship race. The carbon composite spaceship launching base White Knight 2, was unveiled in the New Mexico desert.

http://gizmodo.com/5029950/first-virgin-galactic-white-knight-ii-photos

In 3 Rivers Michigan, a joker was arrested, that’s right, someone decided to imitate the joker in an attempt to make off with some movie posters, sadly the police already knew how he got those scars, and we’re quick to arrest him.


http://www.comcast.net/articles/entertainment-movies/20080729/ODD.Joker.Arrested/

"Scene Deleted Because I was too busy loosing the game"

http://losethegame.com/default4.htm

You may have missed the eclipse yesterday, if you did it’s ok it was only showing in northern china anyway. To see some more information check out the link in the transcript.

http://www.sciencenews.org/view/generic/id/34659/description/Save_the_date_solar_eclipse


Tired of the MPA?
You’re not tired enough of them yet, you see they have a new plan that they would love to see the FCC adopt. And it even has social benefits on you the user of your television by allowing you to see movie programs a few months earlier on those On Demand movie channels, and the only thing that you have to give up is that the MPAA gets to control all input and output jacks on the back of your television.

That’s right, the proposed Selectable output control would allow the MPA to control all the jacks on the back of your television if the FCC approves, please be sure to check out the link in the transcript for a way to protest


http://www.publicknowledge.org/issues/soc
Anthrax?

That’s right apparently the key suspect has committed suicide, and who was said key suspect? It was a leading scientist in the Biodefense agency for the United States. Bruce Ivins was going to be charged with the anthrax deaths that occurred in 2001. He managed to overdose on Tylenol, so we may never find the man truly responsible.

Interesting in its own right, do you guys think he was guilty?

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/7536890.stm
Closing
But that’s about it for today, please feel free to comment, whatever

Credits: 08. Basshunter - I Can Walk On Water I Can Fly

Man Kills guy on Greyhoud Bus

So apparently the news that is all over the web and media. The story of course is that a man on a greyhound bus stabbed and eventually decapitated another passenger on the bus. It should also be noted that said passenger was sleeping at the time of the decapitation (or at least prior to the first knife strike). Oh yes, he wasn't decapitated in a single blow, it took several knifing to the neck until the man finally died.

So it was later discovered that the man was of course insane and probably should have been in a mental institution. That being said, I would like it to be noted that if you have ever been on A greyhound bus, than this kind of passenger isn't all that surprising. In fact he's quite expected, he did what you are afraid most of the passengers on that bus were going to do anyway.

I'm more surprised that fellow passengers didn't help to decapitate the victim. These are the people who are so destitute they couldn't afford a Plane ticket, so they are left for days on a miserable bus with the rest of the destitute. These buses have been through literal hell. So honestly I am simply not surprised this happened

If anything I'm more surprised I hadn't seen this story earlier. Also its been discussed weather or not the man should receive the death penalty. I would like it to be noted the man is in Canada, and unless he is expedited to the US, it is highly unlikely that he will even be considered for the death penalty.

With the system the way it is (you know civilized, and not Texas), he will probably receive the medical help he needs, and be placed in an institution where he will be taken care of.

Life because of water

One of the most recent expeditions of science was to attempt to find water on Mars, was all to prove that Mars could support life, but all of this ignores one common thought, and that thought of course is that Biology may be wrong. You see for years Biology has stuck to a to a series of logic checks when it comes to life, mostly because we're stuck on a single planet and really haven't seen life outside of that ecosystem. So our thought is that life must require the conditions on our planet in order evolve or come into being.

Really that is arrogance on our part, and it has lead to helping religions establish their belief system, which leads to the thought that another form of life would all but destroy most religious beliefs, especially if we run into a group that is polytheistic (also why the hell is 1 god a more advanced thought than many gods?). But more on my hopes later, really we're harping on biology. The fact of the matter is we have made assumptions based solely on our own Biosphere. Sure, that is in line with science, to make laws / theory based only off of observations, but I feel that it ignores some key facts about our scientific knowledge.

First, we assume that viruses are non living, mostly on the case that they don't have the ability to replicate on their own, that they require another life form in order to reproduce, but if that is what is separating viruses from life than what about all the insects which require another form of life in order for their offspring to come to be? I mean sure they are injecting something a little more complex than a strand or 2 of RNA, but on the same note they are a good deal larger.

There is also the notion that somehow all life must be hydrocarbon based. I mean that is why we're on mars, to find water, thus suggesting life could be there. Really the water could mean nothing, I mean what if life has come to be on Venus, and they have evolved to live off of Sulfuric Acid. Really its our qualifications for life, now granted they have been adapted so that we don't call a fire a living thing anymore, but maybe the carbon / hydro requirement is a bit off.

I don't know, maybe its just because I don't have a PhD / Major in biology, but it would seem to me that we are taking a very narrow perspective on what life is.

The Stand Alone Complex #1

Alright, first of all I would like to clarify that this is in no way my idea, in fact several people have started to recognize that this theory applies well to a very interesting group. Now it should also be pointed out that the standalone complex is not considered a real theory, its just something peeled from an anime / manga. But as the internet evolves I become increasingly interested in a real life counterpart for the Stand Alone Complex. As of yet, I haven't found a theory that offers a similar take on real life events, so if we're lucky, Ghost in the Shell may very well have come up with its own philosophical theory, and it may very well have been right. For those not sure what the theory is:

While originally intended to "underscore the dilemmas and concerns that people would face if they relied too heavily on the new communications infrastructure," Stand Alone Complex eventually came to represent a phenomenon where unrelated, yet very similar actions of individuals create a seemingly concerted effort.

A Stand Alone Complex can be compared to the emergent copycat behavior that often occurs after incidents such as serial murders or terrorist attacks. An incident catches the public's attention and certain types of people "get on the bandwagon", so to speak. It is particularly apparent when the incident appears to be the result of well-known political or religious beliefs, but it can also occur in response to intense media attention. For example, a mere fire, no matter the number of deaths, is just a garden variety tragedy. However, if the right kind of people begin to believe it was arson, caused by deliberate action, the threat that more arsons will be committed increases drastically.

What separates the Stand Alone Complex from normal copycat behavior is that the originator of the copied action is not even a real person, but merely a rumored figure that commits said action. Even without instruction or leadership a certain type of person will spring into action to imitate the rumored action and move toward the same goal even if only subconsciously. The result is an epidemic of copied behavior-with no originator. One could say that the Stand Alone Complex is mass hysteria-with purpose.

(Wikipedia, http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghost_in_the_Shell_(philosophy)#Stand_Alone_Complex)

But more to the point, I would like to speak about real life instances of this supposed Stand Alone Complex. And they are coming from a very interesting source, the Internet. It would seem that as soon as you couple anonymity with a media format in which no human being is present, what seems to occur is what essentially amounts to a meme. That meme that continues on even spilling over into the real world, without the original owner ever being known

A perfect example of this is the Rickroll, the original creator of the RickRoll will never be known, and might as well have never existed. But the fact of the matter is that it is now spreading into the real world, the RickRoll has appeared just about everywhere: National sporting events, Local School Events, etc. All of them orchestrated by individuals who have no other connections to the original than having watched the video.

I would like to continue this later on, with relation to the *chan's, the attacks on Scientology, Digg, and Slashdot, all have created instances of the Stand Alone complex and should prove an interesting investigation.

Till Later,

Way to go Sid Meier

So, I was recently trying to play civilization 3, sadly that all went to hell when the game decided, that I the one who had payed for it, was not in fact the original owner. That's right, thanks to the wonderful copyright protection that went into the game, it is convinced that I do not have the original disk. So, really I just wanted to thank Firaxis games, I really was hoping to enjoy Civ 3 and all its glory, and what I end up with is a nasty mess of tech support.

The problem there of course is the Firaxis has decided against providing easy access to any form of technical support. I suppose that happens when you interlace a game company with another game company, on top of yet another game company. So I tried looking through 2k games for contact information, thinking maybe they had inherited Civ 3 and could help out.

No contact info on any of the sites, and at this point I was getting just a tad bit frustrated, I mean really I had legitimately bought the game, and I was hoping to find a solution that didn't involve me cracking my own game. I finally came to the decision that I was fed up with the whole thing and I wasn't going to use piracy against the anti piracy software for one of the few computer games I own.

Needless to say I simply uninstalled the game and moved on, hoping that Civ 4 might provide a distraction while I sulked about my lack of Civ 3. The big problem with civ 4 is that it moves very fast compared to civ 3, (which I played to waste away hours of my time). Add to this that I missed the huge map editor that came with civ 3 that is hidden away in Civ 4. I mean huge is a big map, but I feel it is lacking in comparison to Civ 3's 365 x 365 map sizes.

But for the time being, I guess I'll have to stick with Civ 4 as the only alternative as all the tech support options for Civ 3 seem to simply involve cracking the game.

What a pain,
Thanks Civ 3, I'll miss you

Youtube Script July 29th, 2008

Youtube Script
July 29th 2008
Well it’s July 29th, 2008, and I think that I am actually starting to make a regular series out of this, so I thought it was high time I come up with a theme, and given my already greenish nose, I thought I’d take a shot at vegetable of the week. Today’s Vegetable… the onion, because it was the only one lying around the house.

Opening: music - Chaos Neutral 3rd Tune

This Just in, a biker was assaulted by New York City Police officers in the recent July 25th Critical Mass Rally. In addition to that he was charged with attempted assault upon the officer & resisting arrest. If you’d like to see the video check out the link in the sidebar

For those of you who aren’t quite familiar with the Critical Mass Rally are held on the Last Friday of every month in cities worldwide to demonstrate how unfriendly most cities are towards cyclist. It would seem that they have more than proven their point. To see more about the group be sure to check out the wiki link in the sidebar

Video / Story here

In news that seemed to pass everyone by
Apparently when Sony released God of War 2 they really went all out. Now I know this old news now, but I found it to be rather interesting. You see one of the big things they did was hold it in Greece, and allow some of the oddest things to occur. This includes allowing guest to the party to reach into a recently slaughtered goat to pull Offal from the stomach, along with topless waitresses and allowing guest to pull live snakes from a pit.

http://money.cnn.com/galleries/2007/fortune/0712/gallery.tech_flops.fortune/10.html


In the political news front and a redeeming shot from Fox News
An interesting series of questions was posed to Barak Obama through the most unlikely of sources. Foxnews.com, The questions tackled issues that really do need to be addressed, or spoken about if he hopes to show any form of consistency, including his stance on the issue of Cuba.

Until recently the democratic nominee’s choice that the Cuban embargo was somehow useful to the nation of Cuba, this of course being in direct opposition to prior statements regarding the allowance of trade with Cuba again so that their floundering economy could get a pickup.

http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,392283,00.html

In the tech news front
Citibank still hates Linux users, if you attempt to login on to their site through a Linux based operating system, expect to get a blank screen and the assurance that you need to use a secure OS like windows. This coming from the company that is using Solaris to run its servers. That’s just wonderful.

Really this kind of ignorance is just sad, it comes from a tech department of 30+ folks with a CTO who graduated learning AGOL. And the problem runs down the line. People need to learn that as long as the browser can read it, 9 times out of 10 the OS will have no effect on the rendering or safety of the page, (at least with a website that isn’t harmful to begin with)

That being said, this has been brought up to Citibank several times, but their
policy holds firm…

Such a shame
http://stealcode.blogspot.com/2008/07/citibank-doesnt-like-linuxubuntu_27.html

Closing
But yeah leave with that floating in your mind, oh also if you wouldn’t mind, please feel free to comment / rate / whatever. Here’s some more portal music

Credits: music 34. Jonathan Coulton (Portal) - [Portal] Still Alive

Homefront

So I've decided to save my news story for the video tomorrow. Oh by the way I have made up a schedule for my video's, so that the two people who actually care to watch it will be kept up with something semi interesting. In the mean time i think I'm just going to focus on myself, and be all blogfaggy and such. I'm not really sure why, other than the fact that I think I just need to vent and the best way to do that is to simply not pay attention to what's going on around me on the international front.

With regards to Purdue University. Everyone keeps telling me that I simply need to read the pounds of flyers / bullshit they have sent me in order to really understand what is going on. My thought is, if I wanted to learn by reading, than I wouldn't need to apply for any college on the planet, and I could sit down and read. Don't get me wrong, I like to read, but I don't like being told that I need to pile through 3 tons of bullshit only to get 1 - 2 useful facts out of the whole endeavor. That's why the whole verbal communication process exist. So that I can speak / converse in some manner with a real human being and get straight to the point of things. If I cared for the fluff I would read it on my own time, but with so few weeks until I pack up and head 9 hours away to a corn filled state, I would like to get key details out of the way such as but not limited to, where it is I am living, how it is I am paying for these things, etc.

It's just that I wish there were more active attempts at communication, for such a successful college I would think they would take more effort to send me useful non flyer based mail. I don't know its not really that big a deal I suppose, they have a great many students to take care of, it just feels so impersonal.

In other news I was able to get a hold of a new phone, I am hoping that it will get better reception / whatever so that I don't have calls just suddenly drop out on me. Also I think this is the most blog post that I have done in a row without some kind of distraction.

So yeah... anyway hopefully I should have a new video to you sometime in the near future.

Regards,

2 New Banks Down

The first National Bank of Nevada and the first heritage bank of North America both have failed over the weekend, with the FDIC doing as it normally does and closing the banks down on a Friday so that it can go about to taking over.

Info Here
And Here respectively

While of course this comes no where close the number of banks that failed in the 1980's (whose number totaled around 3000). It is still the largest number of bank closings in quite a while, quickly coming to dwarf the several failures that occurred in early 2002. What will make this worse than 2002 is that for the most part, besides the political bickering (which the media has been focusing on for the last 7 months), tit has been a slow news year. And they love stories that may or may not incite panic. So undoubtedly this will be making headlines if something else doesn't come up.

What happens than is that more people will be looking at their banks and evaluating them. Add this to the fact that several large banks are expected to fail and simply haven't yet.

list here

And you get a nasty economic future. Of course the best thing to do right now is have a little faith in the banking system, because if people begin to panic, than that is what causes the chain reaction, much like the one seen in the 1980's. I would also like to point out that it was a republican president in charge both times =D. I'm not saying much... I'm just saying blame Regan and his now rotting corpse for the evils of the world

Anyway fact of the matter is that this by no means indicates a large scale failure of the United States economic system. It simply means that the economy will be going through some rather rough times in the near future. In my local area they are putting all hope into a VW plant that is going up in the near future. I of course would be leaving as soon as it gets approved. But really what it tells me is that our primary money source (Industrial Manufacturing) is changing.

Meh thoughts aside, I'm hungry and need of a burger because I'm a fat, lazy, blogging, and happy American. So suck a corn dog I guess..

anyway,
later

Minimum Wage

In a recent change in the world, the minimum wage has been raised nation wide to the grand total of 6.55. This doesn't affect all states, as some have already had their minimum wage far above that, but where I live that is the full increase of .70 cents. The plan is to raise the minimum wage again within 1 year to the total of 7.25. Of course as with anything aimed at abolishing social slavery, it has been met with a great deal of hatred and contempt by those who claim to know how it is that big business works. Big business than happily agrees with those who say that they are trying to defend themselves by helping big business.

They go so far as to suggest that the whole concept of minimum wage should simply be disbanded. This concept would than be replaced by a completely free market in which a business could pay their employees anything they wished even .20 an hour. Really when you think about that concept it sends pre civil war shivers up your spine. The fact of the matter is that minimum wage needs to go further than it is now, much further. Because the big problem isn't that business won't hire more for fear of loosing money, the CEO's and Board of Directors make far to much for that ever to be a concern, the big fear is that of inflation, of course this is just born out of stupidity regarding the market.

You see children inflation doesn't come from giving more money to poor people, money that was already in the system that is. Rather it comes from printing new money because those who are intelligent enough to be rich, took the step to horde and invest their money, so that it never actually hits the system. What this causes is the federal government to send more money forcefully into the system in order to keep it a float, all the while the money they printed previously has never seen the outside of a bank.

So that fear really isn't warranted. The next fear is that businesses won't hire as many people. Given that most businesses already pay over the minimum wage to begin with, I don't really think it will phase them. But the fact of the matter is that this has to stop. Paying even close to minimum wage is still social slavery. I mean when you think about it you are only given enough money for food, shelter, and clothing. What about that doesn't scream wrong in someone's eye?

It's disturbing to me, as well as many others, that we see that style of living, that kind of poverty as acceptable in the eyes of any society. The problem of course is that those with money and influence have no problems with that kind of mentality, and simply chuck it up to the ideas of a capitalist market. But you can't blame an open market for the concept of slavery, there becomes a point when it becomes the social responsibility of a business or cooperation to take care of its employees and make sure they are not only above the poverty line, but also don't live simply off of their necessities.

The first place to start within a society to attempt to correct this is within the education system. To fund far larger amounts of money into a school system, to pay Teachers more, shrink classroom sizes, and improve facilities and technology. In addition to that a change in curriculum must take place. A focus on thinking critically rather than on memorization. If this includes extending school hours to year long than all the better.

This of course touches on a getting into a brand new economic theory that doesn't use a capitalistic core, but more on that later. Until than...

July 26th Youtube Video

Youtube Script:
July 26th 2008,

Header:
Hey, it’s July 26th 2008, --- Well not yet, but I have things to do Saturday, so you best just deal with the fact that I uploaded it today
Phaser Labs Logo

Opening
If you went to a New York Yankee’s game recently you may have been surprised. It would seem that in order to stem terrorism, it has been decided that sun block be added to the terror watch list; At least at the Yankee’s game, and on an especially sunny day. And to make up for it, you could even go and get a new bottle of sun block for only $5.00…

This is even better than those bottles of water that clearly were bombs according to the TSA, I mean if I were going to use a bottle of sun block to cause trouble, I could think of much better ways than to use it as a weapon of terror, a nude beach perhaps… but not as a terrorist weapon. You know come to think of it, If I was running around a nude beach with a bottle of sun block, that might just be seen as a weapon of terror >_>

http://www.nypost.com/seven/07222008/news/regionalnews/sunblockheads__at_the_stadium_120930.htm

In the paranoid news block
A CNN reporter who did a series on the bloated 1 million name + list that the TSA uses in order to detain you at the airport claims that he too is getting hassled. The TSA is of course denying any allegation that it’s their faults, and claims the airports are to blame. The airports have in turn claimed that were simply going off the list provided by the TSA.

By the way if you would like to find out if you are an America hating terrorist they say that it is pretty easy to find the list. Much to my disappointment I couldn’t find the list to find out if I hated America enough to be detained at an airport. If someone out there can find it, please feel free to point it out the res t of us so we can all get a good laugh.

http://rawstory.com/news/2008/CNN_reporter_wants_off_terror_watch_0716.html

In News of the Weird,
A man stole buses during the day, drove them on their routes, and returned them at night. He didn’t steal the bus fair, he didn’t hurt the passengers, he just drove the buses on their route and did it all in an employee’s uniform. The motives are a complete mystery, but the man has been charged with 3 counts of grand theft auto.

Having been on the local buses, and imagining the magnification that Miami Florida would perform on the normal attendants of said buses. I think the man should simply be given a check for driving the buses around. I can only imagine the kind of strange faces you see on a bus in Florida, but I suppose if you have the motivation not to get paid for doing a job, you are more than likely fine with those faces.

http://www.news4jax.com/news/16970491/detail.html

In news no one cares about, and by that I mean about our European brethren
An elderly woman had her camera confiscated by a council worker across the pond, because of fears that she might be a paedophile. She was taking photos of an empty paddling pool

Now, I would like to say, that it represents a fetish out there, but not the one the council member was thinking of. Horrible image now creeping into your mind aside, please enjoy some more batman theme music.

http://www.metro.co.uk/news/article.html?in_article_id=232145&in_page_id=34

Closing:
As always, please rate, comment, whatever, and the Transcript is of course located at fullphaser.blogspot.com

Credits

Also, it was suggested I paint my nose green, sadly I have no paint

Obama Speech in Germany

Recently, presidential canidate, Barak Obama, went to Germany to give a wonderful speech to the crowd. Look lets face it folks, John McCain doesn't have a shot in hell of winning this race, the second that he and Senator Obama are put on the same stage for a debate, both McCain's age and horrible ideas will begin to show through, and the message that the democratic party has been pushing for the last year or so might actually begin to show through.

The fact of the matter is that when you look at John McCain's political positions he really does show through as just another Bush Clone. And given people hatred towards our current president... I can't understand why people would even be willing to give this man an ear. I could see maybe a 20%-30% approval rating for McCain, less so than our current president, because I imagine some folks are simply following him because they have some soul bound patriotic duty not to dislike the president (Of course the irony there is that is in fact the very opposite of what this country was founded on, but more on that later).

So anyway with regards to the Obama speech, he hasn't become President of the United States, and he is already responsible for two speeches that will probably ring throughout history for at least the next five years or so. Really, I could care less for all the speeches and the politics, that doesn't change the reality of things, being of course the Europe is still pretty offset about our nature to react so violently to attack. I guess after 1000+ years of internal warfare and conflict, they are simply used to the idea and aren't over reacting to things like terrorist attacks because they are nothing more than a modern day castle ransack. Hell during the roman times entire cities were lost, and Rome sat quietly and sipped wine. The United States hasn't had to endure that, not since the Civil War, and even than it wasn't an outside enemy. The last time an outside enemy was able to lay siege (memorable siege) was the burning of the White House in the war of 1812.

So really I wouldn't be surprised if even while the Europeans we're clapping they weren't a bit thrown off by the terrorism markup. Which I imagine was aimed at appeasing the home front who watches CNN / Faux News.

Anyway, just some thoughts...

Covering for Star Trek Writers #1

I'd like to run a series of articles, on how to explain away obvious holes in the writing that is done for Star Trek series over time. I don't know why I have any motivation to do this, but I thought I might as well do it for the sake of amusing myself, and keeping others informed with pseudo information, so they too may feel better about themselves and their fandom.

So the question than becomes, what is one of the first issues that I want to address? I thought I might go after the series "Star Trek: Voyager" and their increasing ease in their ability to defeat the Borg in a confrontation. It went from being scared of dead drones,and avoiding the Borg at all cost, all the way to flying into a Borg base and blasting away like it was no ones business.

I think this one is actually one of the easier holes to cover, and it has a lot to do with Voyager simply passing through the Delta Quadrant. The fact is that we know that Voyager was picking up technology as it went, so in that regard it was already more advanced than most Federation starships out there, due to a combination of the already advanced design of Voyager (which was more than likely designed to combat the Borg, given the timeline). It was no old Galaxy class or Miranda, rather it was a new off the line Intrepid, and than they get to run through the Delta Quadrant, and like a woman in a shoe store, begin to pick up any technology they wish to (all while of course sticking to the Prime Directive).

What this leads to is them running into the Borg in a conflict, a conflict the Borg are loosing, to a species that voyager would later make an alliance with. Add to this the Borg Drone they picked up. Picard had only been a drone for a matter of days, and was easily able to pinpoint a weakness in the Borg Cube attacking earth, 7 of 9 represents a Borg Drone who had been with the collective for a very long time, and had a great deal of knowledge regarding the technology used by the Borg. So she hands it over to the Voyager crew, and this is brought up many times throughout the series. Its mentioned in nearly every episode where a major change has been made to the ship, that 7 of 9 was a key element in this upgrade.

So there you have it, perhaps the defeat of the Borg scout ship in episodes like Dark Frontier 1 & 2. Also there was the knowledge provided by the Hanson's which never made it back to Federation HQ. Sure the Borg may have assimilated the Hanson's, but the Voyager crew could easily have modified it.

Just some thoughts

Transcript for Video on July 23, 2008

YouTube Script, Give or Take
July 23, 2008
Top Story
Obama in Iraq For the past week or so, Presidential candidate Barak Obama has been on a tour of several key Middle Eastern states including Iraq and Afghanistan. This would be one of his first trips to the region. And while he’s being criticized for not doing this earlier, I have to say I find it interesting that the Republican Party is taking him to town on this one, given that he really hasn’t had a chance to visit Iraq anyway. McCain barks and preaches about multiple visits, the problem there of course is McCain has been in National politics since the 1980’s, I’d be more worried if he hadn’t made visits to the area. Obama has only been a senator since 2005. Also I find it funny that his name is one of the few that you can search for on Google, and it will bring up his own website before Wikipedia.

But the point is he will be going over there to talk with key military leaders in the region to get an idea of how things are going. Given that I could care less about either candidate this year, simply because regardless of what party they are from and who they are, I doubt they have the capacity to restore this nation to any form of glory. But of the candidates on the field, Barak Obama looks like he’d do the best job of not screwing it up for the rest of us. So I suppose I’ll vote for him, assuming of course some cracked out KKK loving redneck doesn’t do the unthinkable…. I really hope the secret service is keeping an eye out on this one.

Gas Prices
And 30 years after the Carter Administration and we are still dependent on gas, sometimes I think it simply isn’t worth it to have a drivers License. With gas around here finally peaking out around $4.00 and the senate just now taking the time to look at the issue, I am left to wonder if they will be able to pull it off. I mean let’s face it, there is no reason why we should be paying as much as we are for gas. I could see if Gas Companies we’re breaking even… but they are making record profits. And the problem is that no one is really able to boycott the substance because we are quite frankly addicted to it. And alternative fuel sources seem to be several years away before they can be implemented properly.

You add this to some crackpot craze for Ethanol, which isn’t any more helpful than gas to begin with, and you end up some interesting times. Honestly Truckers just need to sit down and riot, the second the primary method of transportation for a good perce3ntage of the world’s goods tell people they are no longer doing their job unless the price of gas drops, I assure you that people would begin to pay attention

In news no one cares about,
Lou Dobbs is still a racist asshole, and not willing to admit it

In the Hollywood News Bracket
The Dark Knight has become one of the biggest movies of all time, beating out that miserable and undeserving failure of a movie, Spiderman 3. Having seen the movie myself, I must say it probably deserves the title. While it may not be the greatest movie of all time, it certainly is the best movie of this year, and I doubt very much if anything will be capable of topping it.

Closing.
Well I thank you for watching, and as always I encourage you to rate / comment / or subscribe. Until next time, I’m fullphaser and this is my onion =D

Backup Blogging

So, my site went down about a month ago. There was some mild attempt to save it made by a friend of mine, but due to some rather problematic DNS shortcomings and issues, it was made near impossible to put back on the web without going to some financial lengths. Long story short, I have very little faith that the site will be returning anytime in the near future. So for now, I think I am going to work out of a combination of Youtube, Proboards.com, and Blogger in order to stay in contact with the world.

My Youtube channel is something I am currently working on and can be found here:
http://youtube.com/user/fullphaser

The proboards forum that I am using can be found here:
http://fullphaser.proboards28.com/

And of course this blog which is conveniently located at:
http://fullphaser.blogspot.com/

Anyway, the point is that I will be using a combination of these tools in order to continue to communicate with the Internet. I think due to some life complications I will more than likely be dropping my affiliation with the Administrator Training Centre and My vForum, and refocus to simply me, That way I can take care of things that have been piling up in my life and need a great deal of attention, a refocus on reality if you will

I think I have been hiding in WoW for the past couple of months so I wouldn't have to deal with the financial / educational hole that I seem to have fallen into. I think finally getting a character in the game to 70 with 375 in all the secondary skills or whatever, and all the other small things that I finally feel like I've beaten it. I don't know I may keep up the account, it feels a waste to let it go on another month without playing. So I'll probably step back in from time to time, but I have to get out of it, or I'm going to go right out of mind.

In other news, I also need to get my stuff together for Purdue. I have spent the last 2 months just kind of putting it off, but the fact of the matter is that housing still has not contacted me, and I'm supposedly moving up there in only a matter of weeks. To put it simply, I'm a bit worried. So for the next couple of days I think I am going to concentrate on wrapping up anything they might need.

Past that, I will more than likely just split my time between this, My Youtube Channel, and That message board. Really it all makes me wish I had far more money at my disposal. Its so frustrating not to have money, and to know how very easy it is to get a hold of. An investment here, and savings bond there, and throw in a bit of manipulation and there you go, you have more money. Thoughts ran through my head of running scams, and more frighteningly I have this overwhelming want for the news to be nothing but horrible disasters, I suppose so that I don't have to deal with reality, because quite frankly it sucks.

They say I should be excited, that I should be happy about what is going on, but I'm just frustrated at this point, with myself, with my friends, with everything. Compound that with depression and more than likely a few physiological offsets along with a few family issues and you have the brew for a wonderful time.

It sounds odd, but I think what I really will need is just a vacation, and I'm sure I'll here hell not being employed at all for the past 2 years, rather spending my time as a student and getting my associates degree. But... yeah I could really go for just a month with no friends, no family, no house, no worries. But I leave in 4 weeks, it doesn't look like I'll be getting that for quite a while....

blargh!

Anyway, I should have a new youtube video up sometime tomorrow morning, I don't quite know what I'm going to talk about yet, but I'd like to do a second video. I don't really have anyone watching them, but It did 100+ views, which was what I was judging for weather or not I should do a second video. In addition to that, I got a friend from Portland to give me some real criticism so I can work on a better video next time.

In other news, I really wish Firefox's Spell checker worked with Google's systems. Gmail, Blogger, because of the Ajax combination the Spellcheck doesn't work in any of them. A real shame I say

Anyway, until Later;
Shawn Miller